Dad beat the every loving fuck out of me for the simplest mistakes, refused to ever explain how or what I did wrong, just straight to hitting me. Then he left, so Mom had to take care of 4 kids on her own, so she was never home, too busy working to provide.

Dad came back at times, but he was always a horrid piece of shit to me until I was maybe a teen.

I cut him off this year, and started therapy (I’m 35 now). Turns out my sister and I were also sexually abused by him, she and I corroborated some memories that I always thought were bad dreams.

I’m healing, and getting past it, but in a lot of ways I feel like I’m starting from behind in life, never having had structure or order or someone to look up to till much later in life. But therapy is helping and little me is healing now. It’s a journey and I’m glad I’m taking it, and I’m glad to not be that horrid man to my children (though I definitely was too rough to begin with, having no idea what to do and only having my childhood to have learned from). I’m the calmest I’ve ever been. Find a good therapist and start healing. Talk through it with someone, it really does wonders to say all the shit you want and tell the names and things at an empty chair.

Next time I see the sperm donor will be at his funeral, to make sure he’s actually dead and gone. I think that’ll be really cathartic.

Been stuck in old music funk mostly, lots of pink floyd, lots of A Perfect Circle and tool and Deftones.

Some newer EDM at least, GRiZ’s new album is fantastic, plus I found some like… Meditation EDM? Lotus Heart by Desert Dwellers, it’s so vibey and chill.

There’s a little local theater near me, usually plays movies after their out of big theaters, but they play this before every movie and I absolutely love it 😁

Honestly, since Baconreader finally stopped working even with patching, being reddit free has been incredible for the last month. Anxiety is way down, lemmy only really updates once a day for my feed, so I only scroll for maybe an hour, then it’s back to reading or writing or getting life in order.

I’m glad they continue to make their site worse and worse, it’s all the convincing I need to not go back to it. I like Lemmy overall more anyway, the people generally seem less black and white on every damn topic. Nuance needs a place in the world damnit.

The only part of reddit I still check is the OSRS sub because that’s where the majority of game updates are posted and I like reading discussions about update.

It might be time to finally show my kids the wonders of LOTR, maybe that’ll be the weekend fun

We’re finally in a position to buy this year, and yeah, everything in our price range is old and beat up. Oh well, time to start my Handyman Arc, it’ll be a blast!

Thirteenth Step - A Perfect Circle. I’ve listened so many times start to finish, absolutely in love with it.

Ain’t nothing as good as some powdered water!

Subhumans, The Adicts, The Exploited, we can go all day 😂

My sweet dumb, absolute cabbage of a hippo would harm someone unfortunately, he’s an idiot and that’s how he meets people, aggressively cause he grew up a stray. So he doesn’t meet new people, he has a happy home with love and treats, and I’m way fuckin stronger and meaner if I need to be should it come to an actual attack on me.

I’m not gonna let dogs suffer in shelters if I have space in my home and the ability to keep all people safe. He didn’t choose to be born how he is, have the life he did, and I’m not gonna fault him for a rough start to life. I’m gonna give him a calm and happy one. We did this to dogs, to just shoo the problem away and let them all die is horrendous. Sure we can stop breeding that specific breed, and I’m all for it, but that isn’t happening, and the dogs still exist, so I’ll keep giving them the love they deserve. I’ll be the bandaid til society gets it shit together and does something about it.

About to buy one, but old and easy to fix. And cash lol.

Yep, we use laser trackers at work to define flatness. I’m sure that much isn’t required, but it’s down to .003in, so pretty flat and it’s fast. But that’s a literal laser instrument designed to do such things and costs 250k. I guess you could with a faro arm or romer arm, but again, those are still 10s of thousands of dollars. CMM? Those can get reeeaaallly pricy