Pleade dont. I mean it. Some time ago i was remembering back to a time when I was funny and it fucking shocked me. I used to make people laugh and laughed much more myself. Then over time life happened. Years of work, illness, family, relationships, the world. It was such a shitty feeling to see how the cynicism and demoralizing environment consumes us.

I don’t want to go to an absolute like ‘ignore what everyone thinks’ because realistically it doesn’t work that way, but you should not strive to change your perception or internal wiring, but to be situationally aware when required. That’s what I think.

Also let me tell you that I still get a little joy when seeing someone laughing or smiling in public, which I think is a good sign. Only the more deeply jaded will see that as a negative thing and give it importance. Five minutes later nobody will be thinking about it but you will still be a joyful person.