I’ve been going through a lot recently. Multiple jobs, bills piling up, and my current relationship is falling apart. I want to cry. To bawl my eyes out and scream at the top of my lungs. But I can’t. It feels like there’s a wall between me and my emotions. Anyone else deal with this?
Yes. I haven’t cried in about 20 years. Tried my best at my dad’s funeral. I don’t have a story that brings sense into it, it’s like I just grew out of emotions.
You didn’t, you just learned to push them down.
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Oh absolutely it is. And to some degree it’s understandable: it’s vulnerable and icky icky icky so there’s an inclination to find and provide ways to mask and suppress emotions instead of expressing them. It takes a lot of strength to be vulnerable, and you can only build that strength by being vulnerable. It’s far easier to suppress.