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Cake day: July 5th, 2023

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  • The Dream: My mother gifted me an old, beat up RV to live in. It was filthy inside, rusted outside. I saw my aunt who wanted to see it and give me a house warming present but I told her No because it was so gross.

    The Explanation: It’s because I have a very strained relationship with my family right now. They failed to step up to protect me when I was young, and then failed to show up again when I needed support as an adult (along with numerous times in between). They left me with trauma and fear and self-hatred without ever an apology or a modicum of empathy. It’s left me with the intense desire to be seen and to be loved, but at the same time an intense fear of being treated again like I was for so long. It’s left me opting out of most of life, because who would want to see such a disgusting, shoddy RV like me? And even if I do convince myself that someone might, what if they burn my RV down? Or come in and are repulsed because they don’t like what they see?



  • jpreston2005@lemmy.worldtomemes@lemmy.worldMe on vacations
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    4 months ago

    I just back from vacation, stayed at a hotel that had free breakfast from 6-9. I was in that hotel for a full week, didn’t make it to breakfast once. Felt like a waste of money, waking up at noon and walking to a breakfast place nearby, but I’d rather pay for a meal than wake up early so 🤷‍♂️




  • The ability to work from home has given me innumerable benefits, but I must admit that as a very introverted guy who’s been going through some shit, and who’s go-to move during times of anxiety and depression is to distance themselves from everyone… yeah, sometimes I do miss my coworkers. A lot of them are pretty great people. Doesn’t mean I’d rather spend 3 hours a day sitting in traffic to see them, just means I low-key miss someone to bitch with.


  • Ah don’t worry about it. I’ve been working out since I was a kid and have fucked up so much it’s ludicrous. When nobody tells you how to work out, you end up doing shit wrong. It’s OK though, because just like life, it’s one long slow learning process.

    Like, I want to compete in a body building competition, and so I diligently went about my training regimen with renewed focus and determination. Started posing practice after each workout. Couple weeks before the show, I’m at 6% bodyfat, lookin good, feeling good. Then I think “wait a tick, in all my posing, I’ve never actually seen what my back pose looks like.” So I went and set up a tripod and camera and took some shots and… woof. My back is underdeveloped as shit. Look like a body builder from the front, and a lil’ twink stick figure from the back.

    So now I incorporate 3 more back exercises.

    Also, I only ever started doing a regular Leg Day like 6 months ago (Just bicycled and ran before).

    So, yeah. Now I’ve got a competition circled that’s further out so I can focus on back, and hopefully by then I’ll be ready. If not, oh well, just circle the next show on the ol’ calendar.

    PROGRESS






  • fatal police shootings in more-Democratic states have declined 15 percent on a population-adjusted basis, with the rate holding relatively steady since Mr. Floyd’s death.

    But in Republican-leaning states, they have risen 23 percent. And within those redder states, exurbs and rural areas, which tend to be more conservative than cities, have the highest rates of police killings.

    You’re telling me that in republican bastion states of lower education, less unions, less social spending, and more racism, is tied to more violence and a greater amount of extra-judicial killings by the state-sanctioned corporation-protectors? But they have almost 4 weeks of training! How could this possibly be??

    But don’t worry! They’re trying to make it worse! Far worse!

    This week, the Justice Department said it would no longer investigate or oversee nearly two dozen police departments that were accused of civil rights violations, including in Minneapolis and Louisville, Ky. And in April, President Trump signed an executive order aimed at “unleashing” law enforcement, including by directing the U.S. attorney general to “provide legal resources” to defend police officers accused of wrongdoing.