It’s just, too much, so much bad and evil happening and I can’t take it, nor can I look away.
I use these platforms to distract from the gnawing constant loneliness I feel that never goes away.
I can’t spend more than 5 minutes without a video playing or checking some kind of media to fill the void.
I’m feeling so suicidal nowadays, but I’m stuck in this existence for the time being.
As I said elsewhere, get off even Lemmy. Do something physical, even if it’s just cleaning up some. As someone who spends most of his time in front of a monitor, don’t spend most of your time in front of a monitor if you can help it. I still get up regularly, stretch, get water, wander around. We weren’t made for this.