it’s called executive dysfunction
Which should be the name instead of ADHD.
To be blunt, the stigma of typicals around adult ADHD is so severe that for most people I just tell them I have an executive function disorder.
It usually confuses them into learning what the issue actually is rather than their perception of what ADHD is.
Look, I’m bad at life because my brain does things wrong, okay?
Hey! I do that too! Instead of saying I have trouble committing names/dates/verbal info, I just tell folks I have a short term memory disorder. Which is true! I need to mess up someone’s name or an important piece of info like 5 times until I cement it in, with guilt and embarrassment.
Then I power through what should have been my whole day of work in 2h30 before going to bed. Then I go try to sleep very late on an adrenaline high, wondering why I tend to burnout, cause I’m so great at this.
Anyway, the medication seemed to have calmed me down a bit on this.
Oooh. I felt this. My thing is, when facing a deadline or something, procrastinate until I forget about thing, then when I’m reminded the day before, start work at 10pm sharp, stay up until finished, convince myself I’ll be fine with only 2 hours of sleep, go to bed, sleep through my alarm, show up several hours late, unbathed and generally in a disorderly state, frantic and panicked.
Hey wait… My brain does have hands!
they call em fingers but I never see em fing
I tend to get something done every day but my weekends get shot because it takes me so long. Im not diagnosed with adhd or anything else but I feel like my life is just a long string of being behind on getting things done.
I made a meme of this exact phenomenon before my original instance went belly up, can’t get it to upload but the text was:
"People say being ADHD doesn’t come with superpowers
But can a neurotypical feel the exhaustion of a task without ever getting up to do it?"
That only really happens if there is no immediate threat of doom. If there is, I am the most productive person on the face of the Earth but only due to the sheer terror that results from last second procrastination.
if you leave ti to the last minute it will only take a minute
It’s super time efficient.
I did that a lot recently, but the past week I decided that I hated spending all day thinking about the tasks more than doing them.
I’ve been forcing myself to just do it and I’ve been getting through it pretty quickly and not having that task loom over me all day.
I used to chroncially be like this, it was awful. Somehow, somewhere, without outside help I flipped, and now Im organized, efficient and proactive. Marking this spot so I can think about it and come back when I think I know what changed.
You have to tell us, you know that right? I am waiting for this moment for 4 decades.
No one in this community wants to hear it, but it is a symptom of personality, and the only way you fix it is with consistent effort to discipline yourself over a long period of time. Therapy is as effective as drugs. It just takes more effort, and people would rather brand themselves as disabled than take small, consistent steps over a long period of time.
